Okay, so I know this is a personal topic, but it is so important to talk about. Let me start off by saying breastfeeding is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. When Noah was born I had no idea how to breastfeed. I haven’t been around breastfeeding often, I wasn’t breastfed as a child so my mom didn’t have any advice, and all my friends who breastfeed their babies live in other states.
Right after Noah was born I got to hold him to my chest for a couple of minutes and then he had to be taken to the NICU . My fever went up during labor so they had to give him antibiotics in the NICU to make sure everything was good with him and make sure he didn’t get a fever. Obviously everything was fine with him, but he was technically a NICU patient during our hospital stay. He was only in the NICU for about 3 hours after he was born, but during those 3 hours I would have liked to try breastfeeding. Unfortunately I wasn’t able to and as soon as I did get him back into the room I had zero help in getting him to breastfeed. It felt so difficult to me for some reason and I always thought the baby would just know what to do. Well let me tell you something they don’t know what to do. They are so little and have no control over their body. You practically have to shove your boob in their mouth at that point.
I won’t go into all of the details, but I had a rough start with breastfeeding. I was stressed to the max, running on no sleep, and felt like I wasn’t doing anything right. There were so many days that I almost gave up. I remember trying to feed him, crying at the same time, and telling Dylan through tears that “this is my last day”. Well I’m here to tell you that I didn’t give up and I haven’t had my last day. I dealt with mastitis, engorgement, using a nipple shield (trust me don’t use one of these unless you have to, and wean them off it as soon as you can), sore nipples, stress, a screaming baby when trying to feed, the whole enchilada. It was seriously crazy in the beginning, but I’m here to tell you IT GETS BETTER. You and your baby will work it out. And hey if you don’t you don’t. It’s all up to you. You’re the mom. You make the choices about what’s best for you and your baby.
How was breastfeeding for you? Did you have a hard time? Feel free to share in the comments!